3.02.2008+
am not back in sg ok
what would you do if your totally confuse?
"its the silence that tells it all. Sometimes its not about the yelling and the tears. All it takes is for two people to sit beside each other and feel that something is wrong, that what was there before isnt there anymore. That they are miserable when they are apart but worse when they are together and that there's only two options left. either they sit still and ignore the pain or one of them gathers enough courage to stand up and walk away"
i want to think that the message is not for me but for him and his gf when don told me that his fren told him that he wanted to break off already with his gf. haiz. i wish i could be given a time to like really enjoy the feelings i wanna feel. but too bad, i dont have that time left. if i were to give advice to my friend and this fren is also me, i would tell myself, go for it. i mean, what's the risk. at least you tried. k, for the fun of it? perhaps. but its different cosh, my heart beats so fucking unexplainable whenever i see him. its like i cant breathe. i really hope he feels the same way but heck.. so what if he does?
today i was like suddenly found myself recalling back those times, every thursday i would head out to tampiness and meet the person i love the most for 3-4 freaking years. recalling those memories, i know i was happy back then given that i felt too many heartaches. i wish, i could feel the same way again. maybe to him or perhaps someone for me. i dont know, i might not marry at all given my situation that i just really cant bring myself to commit anymore. there's only one person right now, that really troubles my mind like shit. maybe its a challenge because he have a gf and its like, who would he choose. her or me? kinda selfish yeah. i wish i could see him again and talk but at the same time im too scared and shy to see him. argh.
1:38 AM
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"its the silence that tells it all. Sometimes its not about the yelling and the tears. All it takes is for two people to sit beside each other and feel that something is wrong, that what was there before isnt there anymore. That they are miserable when they are apart but worse when they are together and that there's only two options left. either they sit still and ignore the pain or one of them gathers enough courage to stand up and walk away"
i want to think that the message is not for me but for him and his gf when don told me that his fren told him that he wanted to break off already with his gf. haiz. i wish i could be given a time to like really enjoy the feelings i wanna feel. but too bad, i dont have that time left. if i were to give advice to my friend and this fren is also me, i would tell myself, go for it. i mean, what's the risk. at least you tried. k, for the fun of it? perhaps. but its different cosh, my heart beats so fucking unexplainable whenever i see him. its like i cant breathe. i really hope he feels the same way but heck.. so what if he does?
today i was like suddenly found myself recalling back those times, every thursday i would head out to tampiness and meet the person i love the most for 3-4 freaking years. recalling those memories, i know i was happy back then given that i felt too many heartaches. i wish, i could feel the same way again. maybe to him or perhaps someone for me. i dont know, i might not marry at all given my situation that i just really cant bring myself to commit anymore. there's only one person right now, that really troubles my mind like shit. maybe its a challenge because he have a gf and its like, who would he choose. her or me? kinda selfish yeah. i wish i could see him again and talk but at the same time im too scared and shy to see him. argh.
1:38 AM
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2.25.2008+
landi
argh...... i hate myself.. i kinda think, i made a mistake again.. fuck!!!!!!!!!!! a kiss shudnt be a big deal.. arghhhh... we kissed.. nax... yuck.. hahahahahha.. so gerly.. anyway, he and i kissed and fuckt it lah, of all places.. tricy? wad the fuck. anyway.. its all bcosh of fucking lost of state of mind. argh!!!!!! karma!!!!!!!!!!
it shudnt be really affecting me like hell bcosh we all know that i am just playing around. and i guess he too. it started wid a fw txt saying "the stolen glance is the olderst trick we know yet definitely the most obvious sign of hidden admiration" you see.. me and huney reached home kinda late wid mcdon of cors around 0845pm. no food so basically we were just waiting for the food to drop at us with mouth open wide. around 10, we decided to ask kay out for dinner at fat joes den we met up after half an hour wid bunting, kays cuz. headed at e usual place and ate. after awhile, e bloody place closed. wtf! i msg him and he was at mudbugs and was asking wether e place is still open and he said it was. so yeah.. we headed there and then, saw a lot of familiar faces. blah blah blah. me and e rest of e gerls were just playing around. blah blah blah. and you see he was there and that bloody glances applied. wtf. dat bloody fw msg it happened last night till.. ended up sharing tables together. u see, mcdon was oso there. common friend.. yeah like dat... simple as that tilll..... aaarrggghhhhhh.... yyyyyyyy... did we kissed? its bad. karma is wads gonna happen. he already haf a gf u see. but he said, they are cool off. but his friends were talking this morning while i was sleeping that even though cool off they are still hanging out together. wtf..... its ok cosh its really no big deal. i just feel bad. why e fuck i kissed someones boyfriend. its against my bloody principle. hate the fact that we????/ heeeeee.. slept besyd me???? wtf, i didnt know that ok. onli this morning i found out. arggghhhhhhh..... i was wasted. dead drunk. fuckit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3:24 PM
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it shudnt be really affecting me like hell bcosh we all know that i am just playing around. and i guess he too. it started wid a fw txt saying "the stolen glance is the olderst trick we know yet definitely the most obvious sign of hidden admiration" you see.. me and huney reached home kinda late wid mcdon of cors around 0845pm. no food so basically we were just waiting for the food to drop at us with mouth open wide. around 10, we decided to ask kay out for dinner at fat joes den we met up after half an hour wid bunting, kays cuz. headed at e usual place and ate. after awhile, e bloody place closed. wtf! i msg him and he was at mudbugs and was asking wether e place is still open and he said it was. so yeah.. we headed there and then, saw a lot of familiar faces. blah blah blah. me and e rest of e gerls were just playing around. blah blah blah. and you see he was there and that bloody glances applied. wtf. dat bloody fw msg it happened last night till.. ended up sharing tables together. u see, mcdon was oso there. common friend.. yeah like dat... simple as that tilll..... aaarrggghhhhhh.... yyyyyyyy... did we kissed? its bad. karma is wads gonna happen. he already haf a gf u see. but he said, they are cool off. but his friends were talking this morning while i was sleeping that even though cool off they are still hanging out together. wtf..... its ok cosh its really no big deal. i just feel bad. why e fuck i kissed someones boyfriend. its against my bloody principle. hate the fact that we????/ heeeeee.. slept besyd me???? wtf, i didnt know that ok. onli this morning i found out. arggghhhhhhh..... i was wasted. dead drunk. fuckit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3:24 PM
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1.26.2008+
bubye bubu
finnaly im done with coughs.. for now.. but im still having flu. anyway, nothing much to blog about cosh there aint much really happened for the past few days. except bubu went off already back to his gf and im not sure when is he coming back again, so me and gj and the rest aint sure when we all guys meeting again to hang out. pau said he might come back around feb but i told him, he better come back after valentines day cosh i pity his gf, if ever he comes back before valentines. before he went off, me, huney, gj, pau, bobby and mequi went to xaler.. hahahahaha.. unforgettable experiance.. (=
what else, hmm.. . ah, i had a haircut again last wednesday. i know, i just cut my hair last dec 29 but my mom said my hair is still long so, here i am, having a short hair now. in fairness, everybody said is nice. even gj, cant stop bothering me about this bloody hair.
jl and i havent been really msging each other but yesh, we still do msg each other everyday except last thurday, i never heard a single thing from him. he said he was busy cosh today is his dad bday and theres a lot of preparations and stuffs, something like that. haiz.. about jl, i aint sure about him ok. i mean, i may like him but i dont know sometimes i tend to think maybe its him but, i cant help but get tired of that idea.. hahahaha..
yesterday, sir bought new car and he was like showing it off stuffs like that so yesterday we went out for dinner and coffee to test drive it. he is a good driver given that he just got his license. hahaha.. i like his car. tsk tsk.. .. below are 2 pix taken while waiting for our dinner... hehehe.. too bad.. e pix are kinda blur to see mah new haircut.. but.. u guys can see how much me and huney gained weight so much.. those are december fats.. hahaha
what else, hmm.. . ah, i had a haircut again last wednesday. i know, i just cut my hair last dec 29 but my mom said my hair is still long so, here i am, having a short hair now. in fairness, everybody said is nice. even gj, cant stop bothering me about this bloody hair.
jl and i havent been really msging each other but yesh, we still do msg each other everyday except last thurday, i never heard a single thing from him. he said he was busy cosh today is his dad bday and theres a lot of preparations and stuffs, something like that. haiz.. about jl, i aint sure about him ok. i mean, i may like him but i dont know sometimes i tend to think maybe its him but, i cant help but get tired of that idea.. hahahaha..
yesterday, sir bought new car and he was like showing it off stuffs like that so yesterday we went out for dinner and coffee to test drive it. he is a good driver given that he just got his license. hahaha.. i like his car. tsk tsk.. .. below are 2 pix taken while waiting for our dinner... hehehe.. too bad.. e pix are kinda blur to see mah new haircut.. but.. u guys can see how much me and huney gained weight so much.. those are december fats.. hahaha
ah.. one reason why i never blog for quite awhile now cosh i was busy settling some stuffs in school and i downloaded a game. my ever favourite game, restaurant empire. im already at scenario 11 and kinda stuck there so here i am blogging away. i woke up early and nothing much to do. the ferst thing i did when i woke up was to check my hp and marx msg. speaking of, last night while hopping at another cafe after our dinner someone called out my name out loud from another road. i have no idea who he is because i cant see him. though i saw gonjie but i think its his companion who called me but i didnt saw his face. ah, marx right, suddenly been msging me and huney recently and i have no idea why. our relationship kinda turned sour because of a money issue. that i kinda tested what kinda of person is he. so i dont treat him as a friend anymore.another thing that happened this week is...... i kinda dumped durt. i dont think im really the type of girl for him.. hahhahaha.. kinda pity him but i have to be darn honest. i just simply dont like him. such an irritating fella. right now, im just happy being single but not SO available.. this things can wait. bleahz...
have to go now.. hopefully ill start blogging again.. (= back to my restaurant.. hehehe
9:48 AM
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